(in Hinduism and Buddhism) the sum of a person’s actions in this and previous states of existence, viewed as deciding their fate in future existences.
informaldestiny or fate, following as effect from cause
I must have been a marriage wrecker in my previous life, karma is bitch slapping me with a very limited social circle in this one… also called isolation.
Taking all choices and consequences into account, I cannot comprehend why my social infrastructure stays so small. I have family in my town but I cannot socialize with them due to their absent nature and toxic behavior.
I have one friend from school but she lives in her own social bubble with kids and a husband and lots of family that keep them saturated in socializing (i hope)…
My ex husband stays in another country, and his family aborted me when I filed for divorce, would I have wanted close contact with them? I don’t think so, but it would have been nice to have had the option to choose.
Work friends that occupy my week days are my closest social circle, I love them for that, but it’s such a temporary friendship although a deeply satisfying one.
My Dad stays 7 hours drive from me, and my Mom is dead.
At home I have two kids.
I have joined Tinder to meet new people and have met swingers and fanatic religious people, they haven’t become part of my environment due to obvious reasons.
Joining groups are less successful, having kids limits the options and joining a Church is not an option.
Where do the complicated, weird but wonderful gather together to form a community. Mad enough to understand you, but simple enough to be a good example for the little people that investigate ones every move?
I am bored and lonely.